30 October 2024

53

 


I turned 53 this week.  Although someone referred to it as "the big 5, 3" there is really nothing big about it.  I got to spend an afternoon with my wife, all four of my children, and my two children-in-law.  It was not a big event (we're talking Panda Express take out level event), and it wasn't completely birthday boy-centric.  In fact nearly as many gifts were given to other people (late wedding gift, late birthday gift) as I received.  It was perfect.

What I had hoped to do (but the idea came too late to implement) was hand everyone a reverse birthday card.  I had the idea of giving a gift (of heartfelt words on paper) to those in the room whom I treasure.  [Just to be clear I treasure everyone who was in the room.]  That concept might be more aligned with some non-Western cultures, but it felt pretty novel to me.  Since I didn't have time to get it done that day I have embarked on a project.  I am writing 53 letters of encouragement to people in my life.  That list includes a lot of obvious names (like all the people in the room at my party).  But for the other slots I just started writing names.  Some were more obvious than others.  There are colleagues who have been my partners in the gospel for many years.  There are local friends who have stood by me (and next to whom I have stood) as the world seems to tear itself apart.  There are names who need far more encouragement than my few words can offer (but I'm trusting God to meet their needs).  And there are names that just came to mind for some reason.  I'm not letting myself obsess over the names that should be on the list... but it's tempting.

I think this writing project is good for my soul.  I think there is something Christlike in considering how the person will receive it.  The words in the letter matter of course, but there is more.  When I print for someone who can't read my cursive, or when I give some care to what the address looks like (yeah, I address in different handwritten fonts), or when I purposefully add a coffee cup circle (not the whole circle, mind you, but about 300° on the right edge) to the back of my graphic designer son-in-law's envelope I think I'm saying I know you and I love you.  


10 down.  43 to go.

11 October 2024

weakness is the way

I was reminded recently of a J. I. Packer quote from the book, Weakness is the Way, which I shared with my son shortly before his high school graduation in the infamous Spring of 2020. "…we are all weak and inadequate, and we need to face it… We need to be aware of our limitations and to let this awareness work in us humility and self-distrust, and a realization of our helplessness on our own. Thus we may learn our need to depend on Christ, our Savior and Lord, at every turn of the road, to practice that dependence as one of the constant habits of our heart, and hereby to discover what Paul discovered before us: 'when I am weak, then I am strong." 

In my InterVarsity ministry life, the South Dakota Area Team is shrinking. While it has been great to welcome Elijah to the team, Caleb’s transfer and the resignations of Rachael and Chris have left me in a place that’s hard to describe. I am grateful for the ministry each had with our team. But I am also faced with the dilemma of unstaffed student groups. I am tempted to believe that trying harder is the way, or that I need the (right) good idea (I have lots of good ideas... if you are familiar with strengthsfinder you will know what it means that ideation is one of my strengths) but weakness is the way. I have a God for this very circumstance. In Isaiah 42:3 we read "...a bruised reed he will not break, and a faintly burning wick he will not quench." 

Would you pray for me, my staff, your pastor, anyone you know serving the Lord who feels like the task is too big? Pray we would remember who is our strength and that we would trust in God alone.

20 September 2022

10 Years

An interesting experience this summer was becoming aware that it was the tenth anniversary of our move back to the U. S. from Belgium (on June 23 to be precise).  "Becoming aware" is a careful choice of words.  I don't celebrate this every year.  Most years I don't even think about it.  I was surprised by my emotions.  I had a hard time naming my feelings but there was a mournful element in the mix.  I was taking an online Zoom training that afternoon and had a difficult time focusing.  I felt like I should have been with Trina and the four kids (none of whom were home) doing something meaningful, or at least having a group hug.  But I was alone for most of the day.  I thought about people and things I missed about that season of life.  It seemed like a "10 Things I Miss about Belgium" list was going to end up as a Facebook post.  The next day I decided gratitude was the way forward, but not just gratitude for those amazing 3 years in Belgium.  I decided to consider things for which I am grateful that transcend the 3 years in Belgium, the 2 (strange and difficult) years in Fargo/Moorhead, and the 8 years in Huron.  And I decided to resurrect the blog as it was so helpful to me a decade ago to process and archive my thoughts.

Here are 10 things, gifts from God, for which I am thankful.

1. Elijah, Abby Kate, Natalie, and Elisabeth:  Those four kids were amazing in Belgium, and they have done a pretty good job of sustaining the amazing back in the states.  Both baby Elisabeth and college boy Elijah have had profound impacts on the ministry to which we've been called (and Happy Cake and Natalie Joy have been great, too).  Cute babies break down barriers to new friendships and college boys help plant InterVarsity chapters.
2. The Gospel of Mark: The way Mark was central in the process of Trina and I answering God's call to Belgium is matched by the amazing impact Mark tracks I've led at camps have had and the impact The Mark Drama has had in South Dakota (and now Wisconsin).  No other book of the Bible, sermon series, conversation, or anything has helped me grow in my love and dedication to Jesus as much as Mark.
3. Another kind of family:  The years we were distant from our families came with challenges.  But God provided (as promised in Mark 10:29-30) brothers (and sisters and aunts and uncles...) from different mothers, both in Belgium and now in Huron.  We love the families we were born into, but the other kind of family has been given as gifts to us.
4. My supervisors: in Belgium I had 3 supervisors (at once).  Ask me to explain it sometime.  I'll try, but even then it was a little complicated.  In my current role as South Dakota Area Ministry Director for InterVarsity I've had 4 supervisors.  I currently have an interim supervisor (and I'll throw in a 6th for my NDSU years).  I suppose I could do a gratitude list for each of them, but I'll just say, Renee, Tom, Edith, Terry, Tim, Amy, Adam, Josh, and Peter, thanks for all you taught me.  [Is it just me or is that a lot of supervisors in 13 years?]  And I guess I'll say, thank you to my hiring supervisor, Paul, the only supervisor who could handle me for a stretch of 9 years (all by himself mind you). 
5. Churches:  I could say I'm thankful for the church, all of it, but I mean churches of which I have been a part.  Seems like most of my adult years have been in a church called Bethel something or other (missed our chance in Moorhead by attending Salem Evangelical Free instead of Bethel E F).  In Belgium it was De Bron (The Source).  Churches have been connected to several of the points above.  My kids have received discipleship and care.  That other kind of family has mostly (but not exclusively) been in churches we have attended.  They are places where I'm known and where my service to God is appreciated.  They are places where I get to serve, exercise my gifts, and be blessed by others in much the same way.
6. South Dakota: We missed it when we lived in Belgium and Moorhead.  When we visited it felt like a sanctuary.  The past 8 years of living here have provided several opportunities to share our favorite hikes, sites, and people with good friends from Europe.  And I love hosting my InterVarsity colleagues for training events, conferences, or visiting unplanted campuses. 
7. Teams: I do not mean Microsoft Teams (still haven't figured out how to make that useful).  But the colleagues I worked with in Belgium (and those working around Europe) as well as my South Dakota InterVarsity staff team are special groups to me. 
8. New Places: One of the exciting things about life in Europe was traveling to conferences (or the occasional vacation) on roads on which we had never been.  We visited many Belgian cities and quite a few nations in Western Europe and the UK.  But I still discover places in South Dakota.  Recently we drove home from the Black Hills on Highway 34 (which I probably have driven at some point but not in recent memory) after enjoying a hike to Community Caves in Spearfish Canyon) a hike our family had never taken, even though we love the Black Hills and have been there many times.  Old favorites are lovely, but there's something special about new places, too.
9. My team of intercessors: There is a special group of four people who meet monthly to prayThere are dozens upon dozens of people who pray for our family and our ministry (and I give thanks for them all), but these four carry a heavier burden.  In the difficult stretches of ministry (and every other part of life) these are the people who get the raw, unfiltered story.  They truly help bear our burdens.  I don't believe I'm exaggerating when I say I don't think I could have gotten through the 20-21 school year with out them.  They have now begun their third year in this role.  I can hardly believe they said yes again.  But Christie, Dave, Deb, and Diana, I cannot thank you enough.
10. Trina: It's a challenge to put in a couple of sentences all I appreciate about my wife.  But I think this is the heart of all the good things I want to write.  Whether a situation finds her enthusiastic or afraid, experienced or just beginning, at home or far away, she serves and she does the next right thing.  That's been a great blessing to me.  Love you, Babe.

Antwerp near the end
of our time in Belgium

11 July 2013

they're gone

I had a sad experience.  My passport expired.  That's not so sad.  But in order to get a new one I had to send the expired passport in with my application and fees.  And they don't give it back.  Inside that passport were a lot of stamps.  And all of those stamps were reminders of great times on great trips, with great friends, and a European life that is now behind us.  
Deep breath.  
Sniff, sniff.
Let's get to work filling this one.

01 March 2013

part of a bigger story


Recently I had an amazing time of encouragement with a group of supporters.  I attended a prayer meeting at one of our partnering churches.  My expectation for the prayer time was that I would be given a few minutes to share as our ministry was just one item on the prayer list for the evening.    But as things developed I was surprised at how many people in that room had a history with InterVarsity which they wanted to share with the group.   

I knew many of the stories, but to hear them all in one room made me very thankful to be working with this ministry.  In the room were men who helped begin InterVarsity chapters at both the University of South Dakota and South Dakota State University.  One of them attended Wheaton College in the early years of the Urbana missions conference.  He mentioned that he did not attend Urbana, but there were some students from Wheaton who did, including Jim Elliot.  There were people whose children were InterVarsity members and others who had been involved as students themselves (some of whose children also got involved as students).   

It’s great to be part of a bigger story.  But the InterVarsity story in that room is just a part of the biggest story of all. I think of the cloud of witnesses in Hebrews 12.  I am thankful for those who went before me, whether their mission field was the university or the local grain elevator.  And I am thankful that God’s faithfulness will continue to the next generation.  I hope you, too, have moments in which you are reminded that you are part of a big story.  So let us “fix our eyes on Jesus,”and “run with endurance the race that is set before us.”


Therefore, since we have so great a cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us also lay aside every encumbrance and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 

Hebrews 12:1-2 (NASB)



27 December 2012

Urbana 12: Avonturen van een Ichtus pen (dag 1)

Ik ben een Ichtus pen. In mijn grootste droom had ik geen plan naar Urbana 12 te gaan.  Geniet van mijn fotos van de eerste dag.
Foto 1: America's Center
Foto 2: St. Louis centrum
Foto 3: Welkom in St. Louis
Foto 4: uitzicht van mijn kamer
Foto 5 echt Amerikaanse fast food (de Coke is een Klein!)
Foto 6: mijn heel chic hotel
Foto 8: inschrijving
Foto 9: met mijn persoon bij de Gateway Arch

09 October 2012